2015 – Game On? :(

Hello Flowers of the world,

wow I think it’s been about 10 days since my last post. Whoops, have been pretty lazy recently and I just came back from a trip to Thailand so yea…. 😦 Haha, maybe I’ll a post on my Thailand trip soon (once I get rid of all the trash I’m suppose to do before 2014 ends). I can foresee it being a real short post (not that my usual post are long…) cause it’s filled with nothing but SHOPPING. Urgh I don’t know about you flowers but I’m not excited about 2015.

Not. Excited. At. All.

2015. The last year of me being a student. I don’t regard university peeps as student. They are more of the young adults category.

2015. The year I’ll be taking the most IMPORTANT EXAMS OF ALL TIMES. Yea it’s like no one ever talks about how hard uni is. Okay, maybe except my sister….

2015. The year I have to decide my future. 😦 WHY?! 😦 I have no mama lemons to what I want to do in the future and if this goes on, I think I’ll end up becoming a NEET or some crazy mama Hikimori (I think that’s how you spell it?). Oh my mama, I think I’m doomed. My world is crumbling as I speak [type]. I can’t even concentrate on ‘touching’ up my soon to be due maths homework.

2015. The year my momma is gonna skewer me like a kebab (just watched some Turkey show so I’m quite in a kebab mood 💁 ). Well, not like she hasn’t but 😦 There goes my resolution of having a clear skin. I’m probably gonna turn mad from all that stress and pressure and have little tiny evil red aliens growing on the surface of my skin 😱 😱 Well, momma has already inform me to get my act together and start prepping early by starting now. Sigh, it’s not like I have any show to catch or mangas to read, it’s just… I feel so unmotivated. I feel like my whole life and plan is ruined because I’m a mama procrastinator. It’s useless to get a planner when part of you know it’s just for display and motivation/determination from it will only at MOST 3 months. It’s useless to get a new haircut (which I just did 💁 ) when you know having a few inches shorter won’t your life feel any better or motivated. No offense but I just don’t get how a new haircut changes a person totally, Hmmm, maybe all those ladies in the korean dramas got them shorten, curled, dyed whereas boring old me just trimmed….😞 😞 😞

2015. The year I need a plan to get my eye degree to lower. Oh my mama lemons, this really took me by surprise. Just a little background, I’ve been wearing spectacles for about 13 years already and trust me, I’m not that old too. I recently got a new pair of spectacle frame from Thailand and wanted to fit my lenses into it. Thus, as procedure, I’d get my eye degree checked before sending it to the lab for a new set of lens. My left eye ain’t really a problem (about 500 degrees I would say? Flowers, wait till you hear about my right eye). It’s the right eye thats the bugger. I WAS a 800 degree +astigmatism on the left but apparently, I did some horrible things (watch too much tv perhaps?) and now its a 1000.

YES. A MAMA 1000 DEGREE.

2015. No more going out/hanging out with friends 😦 I’m really upset about this cause 2014 was the first year I went out with my friends (friends that I actually had fun with haha) LOADS of times. I think about 7 ish times? The barbecue, the karaoke, the movies were all so fun ♡( ᵕ̤ૢᴗᵕ̤ૢ )♡ Yea I probably became kind of a wild child after that but golly, I don’t think I ever had so much fun before. Furthermore, it was a nice change to my daily life which consist only of reading mangas over over AND OVER the whole day. Really,  I think if not for my mates I’d really turn into some NEET/unsociable person cause trust me, at my peak I can read manga/watch anime from 7AM TO 7PM (haha did this only once like 7 years ago?).

Yes, I’m in this state of mind which I can’t think of much good things that might happen in 2015 so this blog is pretty one-sided. Sigh. 3 days left before 2015.

Game On? I don’t think so.

Getting Ready for 2015

HELLO FLOWERS OF THE WORLD,

starting off the blog with caps cause I just ended my mini workout session (1 km of brisk walking on an inclined plane + 3 minutes off full squats challenge 💪 💪 💪 ) so I’m pretty high on endolpines now (I think that’s how you spell it… too lazy to check). Today, 8 December 2014, 6.37pm, I have decided to start preparing for 2015 both mentally AND physically (wow. It’s about time I started…. urgh)! I have only around 3 weeks left before the start of 2015 and 2015 is a REALLY REALLY REALLY important year for me cause of my BIG MAJOR exam so I don’t want to start it off with a bad note.🎶 🎶 🎶  So to aid me into working this plan out, I’ll declare what I want to do before 2015 begins on this very blog so you flowers can hold me accountable yea 🙂 So here it goes…

1. FINISH ALL ASSIGNMENTS DUE IN 2014 BEFORE 2015. This would mean Band admin work, school holiday homework and tuition homework.

2. FINISH REVISING AT LEAST HALF OF EVERY SUBECT. OKAY this will be really hard cause I’m not a study person and I have 5 content heavy subject… Gambatte to me please. 💁

3. WORK OUT EVERY MAMA DAY. I don’t care if it’s just half-squats or 1km of walking, I just need to feel healthy. I’ll admit that I’m currently probably around 58 kg and I want to be at least a 55 kg by 2015. Oh mama, this will be hard with my upcoming Thailand trip but I’ll do my best!

4. REDUCE MY EATING OUT ADVENTURES. Ok except for healthy food like sushi and salad. I’m not usually a eat out person (except when I’m out with my family but it’s ok cause they are all health conscious) but ever since I entered a new school, all my new buddies are always constantly hungry and eating out. Furthermore, we are all teens so the few places we can afford are fast food chains. Thus, no more MC DONALDS and NENE CHICKEN (eating Nene chicken was one of the worse decisions of my life. Sorry bud)

5. KEEP MY FACE CLEAN. I have a terrible history of acne and pores and though it’s pretty much better now, maintenance is still the utmost important and as a vain teenager, I shall try my best to massage my face every time I shower and use available products or beauty tips to try whitening my face. Seriously, I look as if I constantly have bronzer splatter all over my face (._.)

Ok, I guess that’s about it for now. There’s only 5 but each point is really WOW. Golly, my head is hurting just looking/thinking about it. This will officially start tonight! I’M READY FOR YOU 2015 !!!

My burning passion and determination yay~

Good Bye.

Hello Flowers of the world,

Today will be yet another special post because it is something that is rather close to my heart. No, I’ll still be posting my art and other stuff in the future (Hah, like anyone’s reading them anyway… 😦 ). However, today, I’d to talk about something more personal. Oh and I might be over dramatic so I’m sorry if I pissed anyone off.

As some of you may know, I just had a promotional exam which will determine if I would be promoted or retained. Thankfully, I was promoted and yes, I was indeed happy. However, a good classmate of mine didn’t. I wouldn’t say that we were close or such but I guess somewhere deep inside my heart, he was someone a step closer than a friend.

Yes. Introducing my one-sided crush. *Clap Clap Clap*

Okay, I wouldn’t say it is love because I clearly know that what my heart feels only a GENTLE tug whenever he’s around me and how I like talking to him. No love or that sort. Just simply…. a puppy love. Yea, I think puppy love would be a more appropriate term to use.

I didn’t think I would actually like him since he was quite… small size. For a guy. BUT THEN AGAIN, we are talking about ME and I’ve concluded that I’ve a small thing for short boys (not necessarily shorter than me. Just against the standards of a usual man?). The reason why I’m only writing about this now was because I had just (like literally about 1/2 hour ago) realized my tiny feelings for him. Oh my, now I’m pretty embarrassed. *Shy Face*

At this point in time, I keep asking myself – what was it that made me attracted to him? Hmmm, well I guess he’s pretty cute, he’s got a terribly awesome sense in designing (urgh he makes us girls look terrible) and he’s a really good boy from what I know and see (totally creepy of me if I knew how he acted at home…). However, I guess his most remarkable, charming and attractive trait would be that strong sense of responsibility and discipline he has.

Yes. That was what made me turn my eyes to him. What made me see him as a true man (sorry A**** I used to think you looked pretty immature).

I like seeing him serious. I like how he aims for perfection. I like how he was clear of what he wanted. Now that my flowers, is VERY ATTRACTIVE. ♡( ᵕ̤ૢᴗᵕ̤ૢ )♡

I guess if I could turn back time, I would really want to get to know him better earlier (we only got slightly closer just 1 or 2 months ago) and maybe if possible, tag along when he goes out to take some shots. Yes, he’s a photographer! Hmm but I doubt that would never happen since my instagram stalking have made me realized that he’s always out with his friend taking photographs and seeing how zero photo sense I am, I’d just be a burden and third wheel. 😦 It’s a little sad. Hah, I bet he looks real attractive when he’s taking his photos

♡( ᵕ̤ૢᴗᵕ̤ૢ )♡

Well, seeing how we are not going to be in the same class or level next, I know there will no longer be a good duration of time for us to get along. Of course we’d still be in contact but overtime he’ll get along with his new friends 😦 Thus, my purpose of this blog is to say my last unofficial good bye. I can’t say it to him because I’m a wimpy little girl so I thought I’d share it with everyone BUT him (anyway no one I know have the slightest idea that this blog exists).

Thank You. For the good times. For making my heart race. For asking me for opinions. Most of all, for being my friend 🙂 I can now truly hope you will do well and get along with your future class. If you ever need anything, I’ll always be somewhere in the campus for you but I guess you’d rather run to C****** for help haha.

Good Bye my one-sided crush.